So much going on inside of me... Good things, God things..

Realized in the earlier part of the week that quitting that second job is something that I Must do -- and to take up for the extra money that I make in 6 days, I can work ONE extra day at my main job. So what stopped me from doing that this past Friday? I was afraid to -- because the boss was in a bad mood -- and I didnt wanna bring it up during the office staff meeting.

Feelings:...

I feel like I'm shackled, like I cannot do what God is calling me to do in the near future when I dont have time to do anything -- not laundry, not time with my dog, no-thing. And this became more and more apparent to me when my parents fell ill and my concept of time and purpose came (quickly) into view. But I chickened out.

Dreams far off:....

I held a baby last night, actually, I was shooting some pictures of a friend's newborn baby and we encouraged each other in the LORD. We had some really good chats on purpose and the lesson's learned in obedience and following God and all. I realized that I'd much rather have and follow God,  and live a simpler life than to continue onto this path....

For reasons that I wont go into, this second job's not gonna work out in the long term. I had an inkling that some transitions would take place on my main job, -- and that I should be investing my time in things that produce longevity. Yes, longevity.

I went to church today, pulled into the parking lot with tear-stained cheeks and a praise of thanksgiving to God. Worship (music) was great -- and by great I mean soulful, worshipful..... adoring to God. An opportunity is coming up - to travel, to pour into the lives of children, to sing, to play sports and to share the Gospel.

I gotta quit that job.

I feel like this is my chance - to be a part of something that allows me to express my God given passions. I dunno how it's gonna happen (this opportunity) and I'm got to quickly get my hands off the how, and walk in the 'trust'. I dunno how he's gonna make it happen, but he is able.

Asking for your prayers for the resources for this mission trip. Lord help me keep my motives close to your heart. God is able. Selah.