Realized Just How Fortunate...

Over the course of the past 3 days, I've got to say that I've really realized just how fortunate I am, and how much God has really done in the last 7 years.

I realized this after some anonymous christmas gifting for two 2.5 yr old children, and then again today when I was able to help a colleague clean out her children's storage shed to "re-gift" for an additional family.

I realized this when I stopped hating the town that I'm in and realized that I've got more things going on in a season than most ppl do over a lifetime.

I realized this when I realized that God is not to blame for me being in this region, but in fact, it was an answer to a very desperate prayer, a gateway to a new life and a fresh start. God, I am so grateful #Selah.

I realized this when I started having dreams that were meant to alert me as a warning for the need for protection from things I could not see with the natural eye, but were lurking in the shadows. His protection is wonderful.

I realized this when I look at the bills that I've been paying for the stuff I've accumulated to be able to do some things that I would have never been able to do had I remained in my hometown. God, I give you the glory.

I realized this when I look at the people that I've met over the past 6 weeks, months....YEARS, and how I am just one call (in many cases) away from someone powerful enough to make things happen.

In frustration, I hated being stuck, but I've realized that this truly has been preparation for the future, that no thing (nothing) has been lost, but all things do work out towards a greater purpose.

I realized that I blamed God for not giving me what I thought was important, (a boyfriend-husband-kids) but I realized that what He's given me is immeasurable to my desires and yet he still allows me to be a part of that scenario in someone else's life.

And with all sincerity I can say from my heart that God is awesome; and He knows what He's doing. And I realized that once I was able to appreciate him in the little ways he'd open up a door, send someone to help, block a potential disaster and just show himself strong (as the church folks say) in the small bits of the day. It's the small whispers that mean the most. And when I realized that He IS with me, I no longer fear(ed).

So my soul is at rest, living the verses he gave me at the start of this journey: Gen 12 (Leave your home) and Jer 29 (Go, build tents, eat fruits from the land, become a part of the community to which I have sent you and you shall prosper as the town prospers. Pray for it, and it's people and you shall see change.)


#Selah